I need to go to the bank in the next hour or so to deposit some sales cash from the weekend and ensure my car insurance gets paid. I’m low on fuel though, so if I drive I’ll have to spend some of the cash (which really needs to go into the bank account) on filling up. I don’t want to do that. The bank is entirely within walking distance, but since my breakdown I’ve become rather over-reliant on the car – especially in Dundee.
At the height of my recent period of unwellness I got stranded a couple times. I would walk to the local library or the post office and then not have the emotional energy to get back. It was quite disorientating and uncomfortable so I started to drive everywhere – even for minor errands.
But I’ve more or less recovered now from the worst of it. It’s been six months since I lost my job. I know I can walk to the bank, the post office, the corner shop, the library and into town. I’ve lived in this city all my life and done these journeys before on foot.
I’m scared though. I don’t want to get stranded or confused.
But I want to save on fuel. I can do this. I can walk to the bank.